Actually considering to move to another state for him
He makes me laugh and just really simple
… but i have horrorable financial baggage
while becomes this bigshot in a company
and I’m still workin in a store as a manager ….
but I have a feeling that he has the same feelings as me and he might be the one I want to have kids and grow old with ….
I should really go to bed before makin any crazy life changing moves …. shouldn’t have had that large peice of rum cake lol
watching as others build up
expand to new horizons
experiencing new situations
feeling of forgot
paralyzed in the sorrow
trying to stand
pushed back down
"what am I doing wrong"
"why can’t I do anything right"
still sitting here
trying but seen as doing nothing
no one knowing the struggle
growing hate of how pitiful you have become
disturbed at what you see in the mirror
hiding the pain inside
sitting here with a smile
on the outside
standing tall at 5”11
lost and ashamed
standing at 5in tall
hiding from yourself and the world
ashamed of what you become